There is nothing like a diagnosis of stage
four inoperable lung cancer with bone metastases to give one a shock. I have
known since I took logic as a young man that “Human beings are mortal. Socrates
is a human being. Therefore, Socrates is mortal.” However, I was not Socrates,
and as far as I was concerned that syllogism was just an example of a valid
argument. However, when you put your own name in place of “Socrates” things
look very different. Now I am an oldish philosopher (67), and suddenly the real
possibility of my own death in the fairly near future has become a reality.
Mortality approaches.
I know that philosophers concern themselves
mostly with abstract and very general questions in epistemology, metaphysics,
logic, ethics, etc.. By and large they do not approach philosophical questions
from a personal perspective. Even death can be approached as an intellectual or
conceptual problem. However, when Santa gave me my cancer diagnosis for
Christmas 2011, abstract philosophy and my personal experience unavoidably came
together. I now wonder if I can write in a very personal way about the
universal truth that we are all going to die, what this means, and if there is
anything of general import that I can express about what is happening in my own
case. This breaks some common views of what philosophy is, but I do not have
time to care about that now. So I am addressing you from a personal
perspective, from my frame of life, and I ask your indulgence.
Let me state my tentative conclusion at the
start. I do feel that having studied philosophy seriously for 46 years allowed me to keep my calm when
the doctor gave me my diagnosis after a routine CT scan. For a second, I sat
there feeling nothing at all. However, the next thought that came to me was
gratitude for the life I have lived. Maybe other people do not feel this.
Kubler Ross famously discusses five stages of grief and loss: denial, anger,
bargaining, depression, and acceptance. I seemed to skip the first four. This
is not to say that I instantly reached acceptance, but I did come first to
gratitude. Now, after six months of living with lung cancer, I am trying to
understand what acceptance of death may amount to.
Each of us can only judge and describe the
world from our own time frame. If I had been much younger, my response to the
diagnosis might have conformed more to Dr. Ross's formula. The world looks very
differently at different stages of life. Nevertheless, how one has looked,
thought, and felt about life and death throughout one's life has to make a
difference at the end. In my case, the lens through which I have considered
life has always been philosophical. Snatches of philosophical thoughts have
lodged in my mind since I was was young. These are like seeds that took root
deep in my mind and have matured and grown over the years. Now I feel that they
are bearing fruit, helping me to live a new and deeper life. One nugget stands
out to complete this first meditation on life and death.
Plato's famously stated that “Philosophy is
a preparation for death.” The Greek word that Plato uses for 'preparation' is
'Melete' and the root meaning is 'care' or 'attention'. It can also mean
'meditation,' 'practice' or 'exercise'. So are philosophers supposed to
'practice' dying, or simply to recollect the fact of mortality as they live
their lives? What difference will that
make?
I confess a great love of Plato and his
amazing Socrates. However, I cannot go along with his tentative conclusions. We
know what Socrates argues in the Phaedo. The reason that practicing philosophy
is a preparation for death is that Socrates believes that the soul and the body
are separable, that the soul is immortal, and that a very different after-life
awaits those who have lived a good or evil life. Therefore, it behooves us to
separate our own soul from our body as much as possible while we live and to
detach ourselves from the preoccupations of mundane life.
The reason that I admire Socrates in the
Phaedo is that after giving his 'proofs' of the immortality of the soul, he has
the greatness to admit that his arguments are only the reasons he personally
accepts to advance his position. He does not claim that they absolutely prove
the soul is immortal. It is a postulate of Socrates' practical metaphysics. In
fact, he says that if he is wrong, and death is total extinction, then he will
never know he is wrong, and his folly will be buried with him.
So in what sense can the study of
philosophy be a preparation for death if one does not accept metaphysical
dualism? I do not accept any such thing, but I still feel that my study of
philosophy has helped me prepare for my present state. Does this mean that the
study of any topic in philosophy will have this effect? I do not think so. I am
not at all sure that one would prepare for death very well by spending 40 years
working in the salt-mines of post-Gettier epistemology, nor in picking over all
he convoluted arguments in mereology and inductive logic.
To see how the study of philosophy might be
of value in preparing to die, we have to go back to the root meaning of
'philosophy' as the 'love of wisdom'. Wisdom is not a topic that comes up very
much in contemporary philosophy. It was more to the fore in the ancient world,
where wisdom, ethics, and the question of living a good human life were brought
together in a philosophical approach to living. For me, loving wisdom has to do with taking up the largest possible
perspective in which to live one's life,
going all the way back to the Big Bang, including all of space and time,
the natural history of the universe, the geology of the earth, and the total
history of animals and human beings on this planet spinning through a gigantic
universe. It covers all the natural cycles of life and death and sees
everything as part of this comprehensive whole. Somehow, living in this context
has helped me see life and death as part of a seamless process. Death shadows
life as naturally as the shadow one casts on the ground on a sunny day. There
is no point in denying it, and no point in worrying about it. Perhaps
acceptance lies in this direction.
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